Everything…is becoming…”normal” I guess…
Loretta’s back in my life…and so is my Grandma, who I still don’t like but…she’s family and I mean, it made my Mom happy so whatever.
I feel…lighter. I bitched and ranted and cried to people who never listen and told a few people off who I am better off without.
But he keeps visiting me in my dreams. Well there are two of them- Nick and Seth. Seth…I haven’t thought about him in forever. And then out of the blue, he calls, and we talk for two hours on the phone. “I love you. I miss you.” Whatever. He’s told me this before and I still don’t believe it…
Nick has visited my dreams every night for the past four nights. He’s been trying to talk to me at school and in my dreams he seems frantic and scared and I have no idea what’s going on but I refuse to speak to him, to let him back into my life. To do that, would mean to let the demons come back. He brought out something evil in me that I really don’t like…Honestly, I’m scared of him.
He’s the reason I don’t date otakus. Why I didn’t date Bobby pretty much. They were way too much alike…which could explain how short my friendship with Bobby was. We talked, got together for a little bit and there were too many flashbacks and fighting with my head and heart and demons. I hate my demons and I don’t want them out because I finally locked them back in.
Like here’s a way to explain it in video game nerd terms.
Nick is the Sephiroth to my Cloud pretty much. That a good explanation? Yeah I think so…
